“Everyone can perform magic, everyone can reach his goals, if
he is able to think, if he is able to wait, if he is able to fast.”
― Hermann Hesse, Siddhartha
As I’ve stated before I recently started a new job. Well with a new job comes new coworkers and for me new germs. I actually managed to not catch the cold that was going around for a couple months. That cold was something else it zapped my energy like cold to a battery. My sleep cycle has been finally been catching up and I’ve felt good enough to go out or stay after work for a drink. Unfortunately, I’ve noticed another zap to my energy. After some research, yesterday, I have a feeling my liver could use a rest, after a strict flow of cold medicine and a few to many cocktails. (I’m not jaundice or anything! just tired!) I thought it too perfect that today is the beginning of a new month and even more fitting that Lent begins on the 5th, so I begin my at least month long trek into the sober world. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not getting wasted every night or not even every month, I just don’t think having a drink after work is going to help my liver repair itself. So, it begins my battle of my own will. I had planned to only do a month without alcohol but now the idea is to continue for lent. I’m excited. This is probably the most difficult challenge for me. I have to have faith that I will not falter. I hope that it positively affects my health and that I can do this.
We shall see!
I only ever wanted to be kind. I still wish and pray for good things. I have love in my heart. I’ll wash the sadness from my eyes and continue to be kind.
“Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye
shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:
For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh
findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.”
King James Version
Okay, two posts in two days I know! I’m so excited though. I almost blogged last night when I got home at 1 a.m. but I was super exhausted. So, I have these new neighbors (about 6 or 7 months now) that have been parking directly behind my driveway. The street is pretty narrow to begin with and there are plenty of other places to park but for whatever reason they’ve been parking directly behind the driveway. It’s been a pain and I’ve tried to be patient. Well, we’ve gotten over a foot of snow and nearly a foot twice this year and the roads haven’t been completely cleared, making it EVEN narrower. I finally got up the courage to leave them a note. Now the last thing I wanted to do was leave a nasty note, I mean I have to live across from these people for however long. But I really wanted to solve this problem. So my note went a little like this:
Please stop parking behind our driveway. Our patience is wearing. It is hard enough to pull out when there isn’t snow taking up half of the street. There are two vacant driveways that you could park in or park in front of. We almost hit your van everyday. And it sucks.
And it did the trick. I came home last night and they were exactly at the edge perfect for us and not too much further from where they’d already parked. So the first thing I did this morning was write them a thank you and I plan to bake them some cookies as soon as I buy some butter and chocolate chips! They made my 2014 so far!
“We have to allow ourselves to be loved by the people who really love us, the people who really matter. Too much of the time, we are blinded by our own pursuits of people to love us, people that don’t even matter, while all that time we waste and the people who do love us have to stand on the sidewalk and watch us beg in the streets! It’s time to put an end to this. It’s time for us to let ourselves be loved.”
― C. JoyBell C.
“Youth is wasted on the young.”
― Oscar Wilde
So, the quotes I’ve chosen for today’s blog don’t exactly fit the theme of my blog, but I thought they had nice sentiments. If you haven’t noticed I generally try to stick with a theme. Which is usually something I’m thinking about or experiencing. Today’s theme is more about growing. I’m thinking about this plant at work, that I’m trying to nurse back to health. I started a new job at the end of November, waiting tables again, a bit more upscale than my past two service industry jobs. I’m excited, I’m learning so much, and trying so many new foods (who knew I’d like fish!?). Yeah, it can have it’s down side but so can filing papers and answering phones all day. I like people and I like making people happy, food generally makes people happy. Serving teaches you a lot about people. I try not to cast judgement on others, and chalk any bad attitudes up to a bad day and let it go. Anyways back to this plant, this poor sad plant, well where I work just moved to a new location, and during the move this plant was hidden in a back corner with no light or water for probably a few weeks. I’ll have to take a picture one of these days. I’ve nursed a few plants back to life before and also killed this same plant before, which has probably sparked my interest in this one. As well I had an internship for a designer and we worked out of her home, she had this plant and is spanned nearly her whole second floor of their house. It was strung above near the ceiling. One day I asked the mother about it, she explained that this particular plant is good luck if it is gifted to you, and the larger it grows the more prosperous you will be. My mom had given me part of her plant like this years ago and it died a slow terrible death, much like my bank account at the time. Needless to say I believe her. I believe this is the plant: http://www.mahoneysgarden.com/houseplant/araceae-epipremnum-pothos
I hope I can promote growth to this plant and bring prosperity to my new place of work and hopefully along the way to myself.
“If you want to live a happy life, tie it to a goal, not to people or things.”
― Albert Einstein
So, I’m guilty of not even trying to achieve my goals I set for myself this year, so far. Maybe its because I haven’t put them out there publicly. I’ll give this a shot, here they are:
40 minutes of yoga daily (I haven’t done this and I LOVE yoga)
4 new recipes a month (okay, so this one I think I’ve done)
make 12 garments (only 12 to go)
a flat a day (I’m only, 35 behind on this)
illustration a day (36)
tidy each day (meh…)
buy a new car
get out of kansas
I guess its safe to say I’ve been lazy. Maybe a little down, 2013 was probably one of my roughest years and I really just want to make 2014 one of the best. I haven’t ever been so unmotivated in my life. I need a kick in the pants, or a fire lit underneath me. The desire to achieve, I used to be so driven. I need to find that girl again.
So here’s to finding the girl I was and being her again.
“Nothing, good comes from doing or wishing bad upon another.”
Maybe someone has done something or said something hurtful to you, but doing or saying something hurtful back doesn’t fix the problem. I no longer feel horror when I hear of another school shooting. I feel anger. True anger. Why is it that when people feel like their world is falling apart they need to rip apart the lives of others? Why?
I don’t understand. “Getting even” is not rewarding, it does not make you good person. Why does the world seem to be falling apart? With so many steps forward or world takes in accepting others some still don’t know to let things go. Holding onto anger and resentment isn’t healthy for anyone. I know I’m guilty of using poor words, and getting irritated at nonsensical things but venting is healthy. Let it out and let it go. Let people know how you feel why they make you irritated, how they hurt your feelings instead of holding it all in. Learn to listen. Be kind. Ask for help when you’re in need. Help those you see are hurting or in need. We all have a responsibility to make this world better.
Believe in everything. Believe in god, believe in the stars, believe in fate, believe in love, but most importantly believe in yourself.
“The greater danger for most of us lies not in setting our aim too high and falling short; but in setting our aim too low, and achieving our mark.”
It’s a new year. The time for new beginnings. I’m not sure I believe in resolutions, but I can believe in goals. I think most people can. In the past, I have set goals that were low and attainable. Timid to a fault. My goal this new year is to set higher goals. Not to fear failure, failing is less shameful than not trying at all. Be bold. Best wishes for you and all of your 2014 goals!
“I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear.”
― Nelson Mandela
It is difficult to step into the unknown. To walk off the path you are traveling. But often it is the things in life that don’t seem to be meant for us are the very things that show us who we are. I hope one day to have the not only the courage but strength to make my own path, and gracefully overcome any obstacles I come across.